Waiting...

I'm sitting waiting at the departure lounge at the airport. It's a bittersweet departure as wee me and lilli are not with me. Sienna's visa did not arrive in time and thus she has to wait till it arrives and once it does my mum will bring her over to join me. The dog will have to wait a few months longer until all her paperwork is cleared. Starting again is an exceedingly expensive ordeal especially on your own... but still, I've worked my ass off these last few months to recover from what was left for me to sort out in BCN.

It's been a tough few months in a lot of way but it was made so much easier by being with my family and although not many of them live in Toronto, my friends from all over have been so amazingly supportive and kind. I'm kind of amazed how a series of wrong doings by one selfish person can result in such a long string of things to fix and re-build... but with everything in life, you can but carry on and make good of things that were once really bad. I'm there now. Wee me is there too although it's been even tougher for her as she doesn't understand why things are as they are and struggles to resolve quite just what to make of it all.

In about a week's time I'll be starting a new job in a new city and in a new flat (god willing). Amazing, scary and positive all at the same time. Everyone keeps telling me how strong and brave I am. I don't quite see it that way but I'm trying to believe that perhaps maybe I am and just can't see it??

The flight across from me is boarding to Varadero. Lucky peeps! My flight is full to the rafters of people setting off to hundreds of destinations. The airport is kind of a buzz with anticipation but mostly from the people who are soon to arrive to cuba, but i don't blame them!

NYC was amazing. Spending time with one of my favorite people was really fun and also relaxing. I don't think I quite factored how much it would hurt my heart to leave him at the end of the weekend but I guess that's normal with this big move on the radar for the next day. I got to see Yvonne and Benoit who are as fabulous as ever, and also my beautiful cousin David which was also a delight. We ate, visited the met and did a fair bit of walking around even though it was very chilly. Having a lay in every morning was just a ridiculous luxury. I'm one lucky girl. There is quite simply no doubt about it.